Let's bygone be bygone!

Get to know some news last few days, was hoping it was not going to be real. Few questions go around me. What if this really come true? HOw am i suppose to deal with it? How am i move on? Am i ready to let go if it become real? Can i accept it as a fact?? There are many "Wat If" in my mind. I really running out of idea on how to cope with it, as been putting lots of effort in it. Really Don't wish to end it just like that! Learn something today, Let's bygone be bygone! I need to take the first step bravely before i move on to my life again. Yea, i really cant do anything if it is become true. I really cant do much! All the best to me and HIM!

dreaming of him

i was having a sweet dream today, he is back to my dream again. The one has been left for about 10 years plus. But, i can't see him clearly this time round. Just can feel the happiness during the dream, the happiness which i missed so much. Should i say i miss him alot or?? what my life will be if he still around this world? Sad, Scare or happy or....? Well, no one will going to find out. Whatever it is, i did love him once..

Finally, i get to know the answer!!

Manage to read his blog today and some comments of the blogs as well. He was writing about an article about some sort of appreciation. At first, i din feel anything on it till read the comments below. in the comment, it is something on how he feels on his past relationships. i was quite sad after reading it as "he" feel bore with his ex gf and tend to let go coz dont have any feeling on her?? just wonder why he rather share his piece of mind with his so call colleague and dont even try to talk with me before he came out any decision. i really speechless when read it, really have nothing to say. seem like he is having a great life even without me around, i think it is really a good time for me to let go!! at last, i know what is the answer!! and it really make me feel sad. may god bless him manage to get someone he really know how to appreciate with. it is just a sad thing that i cant be the one who he really can appreciate on.