Disapointed

i been calling HL last night, was hoping to share some of my feeling with him.. i also dunno why i will go back to him everytime when i face problems. I will feel more release and know what to do on my next step after talk to him. Well, like usual, i was calling him when i feel upset. Tot can be better after calling him but who know it make me getting more worst. (In a bad mood for whole night till today) When i call, he just said like this :"i m busy now." then, hang up the phone. I was a bit disapointed that time. Yet, i reassure myself that he will give me some feedback or something after the call. he din send me any msg, which was what he did normally. I feel very very upset because i thought we are having some connection. I think i must be thinking so much for all this while. He had promised me that will try to come over singapore during my birthday. I was very happy when he told me so. Be frank, he is the one i wish he can make it for my birthday. However, after yesterday, i think i will not put so much of hope anymore. Feel disapointed again!!