Boring Sunday

I am having a late night sleep yesterday, planning to have a late wake up today. But, my mum want me to get up early cause today is family day! Well, i think i would need to ignore her wills. I am so damn sleepy and not really into any moods. This is due to i am having menses pain. It been torture me like hell few days ago, getting me into bad mood, bad temper and bla bla bla.
What a boring sunday to me, kind of lonely and bit lost. Just the feeling of myself..... Another day to go, life huh?!

It is all about LOVE

Been trying to act like a spoilt young adult recently, maybe it is due to the unsolve problems that bothering me alot! Well, thank godness that i having my family with me. They try to deal it patiently and being understandable on why i m acting that way, especially my mum. She didn't blame me for coming out the decision and also not try to burden my stress. She been so understanding and supportive. I m so touch and happy to have her around!

I m been taking good care, pampered and showering with loves ever since i born. They always be there for me and fulfill whatever and everything i have asked for. One thing which make me feel touch and warm was they keep on telling me how precious i am for them, and how grateful they are to have me coming back home. I m not the type who easily have my tears down especially in public. Hence, I was trying to act nothing when they telling me this. Actually,i already cry out loudly inside my heart. Well, I m so lucky to have them and cant even find the best!

Love expression is rarely happen in chinese community, but we did practice it ever since my father passed away. We learn how to express, appreciate and care about each other. well, it is all about love in life. What is the most important thing for me? i would definitely say is my family, because they are the one who making up my past, present and future! I can lose everything but not them!

Today's feeling

The most Hurt feeling is when you have to let go the things you really like.
The most Happy thing is when you get something you really like.
The most Miserable feeling is when you lost in your direction.
The most Sadness thing is something you dont wish to happen had happened.
The most Exciting is when someone give you a suprise.
My feeling was all blended into one - Sad, Happy, Hurt, Miserable and Exciting.
I feel hurt because i know i need to let go something that not really belong to me.
I feel happy because i m been given a chance.
I feel miserable because feel quite lost in my future.
I feel sad because things that happened few weeks ago were out of my expectation.
I feel exciting because waiting for suprise on my BIG day.
GOSH, i can have 5 different feelings just between 24 hours.... Really typical Lady huh?!
Feel like crying cause reminding of someone...
Well, life move on.... Cheers! You can make it, Janelle!

Steamboat + Farewell Dinner

Liza been suggested go for a steamboat dinner few days ago. It was sort of renuion + farewell dinner. Thanks them for organizing the steamboat dinner specially for me and liza. The funniest part was we went home separately cause we didn't invited our Manager around. I think Ms Felix will be curious why everyone was knocked off exactly on 7pm. Hahahaha...... This is the first time we having dinner together as a big gang. But sadly, there are some of them cannot make it.

Obviously, steamboat is not my favorite and yet still enjoy it. We heading to dessert shop to continue our chit-chatting till around 10 plus. Quite a tiring day for me (didn't really have a good rest since back from Malacca)! I need a good rest tonight, can't make it to any appointment. But, Yvonne just suggested go for clubbing this weekend. Well, another happening weekend to go! Tire, feel like going home now! I am damn envy Ms Gwen cause she is "Snaking" now! Still have 1 hour and 15 minutes to go.... sigh sigh

Busy Weekend

It is been a busy weekend. Been hang around with friends start from Fri till today! Maybe I've done too much of walking, making my leg's muscle getting pain again! Gosh, i think i need to stop wearing high heels start from tomorrow!

Din really have enough sleep and rest for this weekend. But, i was quite happy with that as i did spent a lot of time with my friends. Quite a good memory for me! Well, Great Singapore Sales was started. By right, i should be superb duper happy as it is a great time for me to shop around. But now, I need to do some budgeting, can't overspend. Well, i believe my life should not just ended in that way. There is still some hopes around me (i mean job opportunity).

Basically, my whole Saturday's hang out was just bowling and do some shopping on Lang Tengah Trip. We been doing some research on our swimsuit from one shop to another. Finally, we manage to get our swimsuit! At first, i was keep on telling Gwen that i only want Tankini but end up i had bought a bikini too and it is white in colour! It was so not me! Well, things change, so do ME! Did i said i m doing some budgeting just now?? Ops.. I bought something again! Our Gal's hang out ended around 9 plus at night.

I wake up early on Sun morning and went to Tampines with my Godma. The room that we going to rent was quite nice, it makes me feel like being home! Was praying hard that i can move in soooon! Well, feeling great as just settle one of my problems! Now i need to focus on my job hunting! was hoping everything going to be alright!

After that, was rushing home to do some errands and headed to Central Shopping to meet up with Michelle and Gwen. They been late again, make me wait for another 30 minutes. Sigh Sigh.... Whatever it is, really having a great time with them (we are just gossiping on both client and my company's stuff! Gals huh?).

Me was rushing back straight away after the lunch as i was so damn sleepy and tire! Penny, still remember what i said when i m lazy or getting tire?? *I WISH I HAVE A MAGIC BUTTON* i think you should know what i m going to say in the next sentence! Hehehehehe....

It is 11.25pm, i need to CIAO! need to zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz .... MONDAY BLUE again, i was so damn sick jor!!

32 Days to go...

32 more Days to go... Gosh, time flies huh! Can't believe i had spent a year at here. I am running out of idea on how i get through it. Still remember the first few weeks at LH.M, it is really like a disaster for me! Pick up everything by myself, it is hard but i still work hard on it. I have no choice coz been signing one year contract with the company, i cant do anything but to learn whatever i can.

Colleagues are nice, at least we don't have any office politic. I m damn lucky to have them around! If you ask me what make me feel hard to let go (in LH.M), i would say is them! But, life move on. i need to go for better prospect due to strategy career move on.

Can't wait for my last day! Even though haven't get any job, but still looking for it. As i m going to LANG TENGAH sooooonn! Yahooooo...... and before my last day, i m going to Cameran Highland with my family.

Trying to fill up my left over time in singapore, hence, was planing some gals activities start from last month. We been went to ZOooo, Clubbing, bowling (this weekend activity), meet up with other friends and bla bla bla. Well, this weekend will going to be another busy week for me. Really looking forward to it!

P.S. Gwen Pan, please gear up yourself!! We will going to have a friendship race this week!

Admin people was trying to talk to me today, it is regarding my resignation. At first, i was ok with the conversation. But, when she informed me that she need to hold back my pay. I was starting to get crazy. What on earth they think they are?? I understand this is some sort of rule and regulations at here, but can't they just hold my June's salary instead of May?? I got nothing to say but why?? OK, Fine. I try to think positively, at least don't be too negative with it.


Then, she bringing the conversation to the extension of my Employment Pass. She sound this when she talking about that,"Hmm, we might NEED to EXTEND your employment pass for one or two months, need to depend on WY (another bitch). If she needs you to stay, we might extend your pass." I really pissed when listen to that, but i make myself calm and smile back politely. Just answer her," Well, we will see how it goes!"


GOSH, my feeling was jumping up and down! How can they be like that? They don't even ask about my opinion whether to extend or not?? Really dislike when people making decision for me and especially it is without my conscent. Well, they can extend any day they like to but they can't force me to STAY!

NEvermind, I am still left one month plus to go. So, just given a piece of advise at here. Please try not to being nasty with me especially during this few weeks, I din voice out anything all this while doesnt mean i m weak or useless. Just don't like to make things bad, that's all...

Am taking own risk!

Manage to tender at last! was damn damn release! Me also don't know why have such feeling, mayb i don't really like this current job. On the other way, feel bit too risky by taking this action. By right i should't tender it, should find a job first even i have it in my mind. But, i really cant take it anymore! Feel like going to be crazy.

I really running out of idea on how to deal with that. Usually when come to this situation, i will tend talk to HIM. But seem likes, HE dun even have time to listen at all. Well, am already get used to it. Din inform much people about my resignation, only few that really close to me. No point of sharing it as they will think how childish i am to come out such desicion.

Ya, right! i shouldn't did that but i already DID. So, the only way out is to start looking for JOBS! May god bless me though!! Dear Birdie Browie, can you listen to my wish?? Can you fly over and looks the best for me? SigH Sigh *%#$@#&

Let's bygone be bygone!

Get to know some news last few days, was hoping it was not going to be real. Few questions go around me. What if this really come true? HOw am i suppose to deal with it? How am i move on? Am i ready to let go if it become real? Can i accept it as a fact?? There are many "Wat If" in my mind. I really running out of idea on how to cope with it, as been putting lots of effort in it. Really Don't wish to end it just like that! Learn something today, Let's bygone be bygone! I need to take the first step bravely before i move on to my life again. Yea, i really cant do anything if it is become true. I really cant do much! All the best to me and HIM!

dreaming of him

i was having a sweet dream today, he is back to my dream again. The one has been left for about 10 years plus. But, i can't see him clearly this time round. Just can feel the happiness during the dream, the happiness which i missed so much. Should i say i miss him alot or?? what my life will be if he still around this world? Sad, Scare or happy or....? Well, no one will going to find out. Whatever it is, i did love him once..

Finally, i get to know the answer!!

Manage to read his blog today and some comments of the blogs as well. He was writing about an article about some sort of appreciation. At first, i din feel anything on it till read the comments below. in the comment, it is something on how he feels on his past relationships. i was quite sad after reading it as "he" feel bore with his ex gf and tend to let go coz dont have any feeling on her?? just wonder why he rather share his piece of mind with his so call colleague and dont even try to talk with me before he came out any decision. i really speechless when read it, really have nothing to say. seem like he is having a great life even without me around, i think it is really a good time for me to let go!! at last, i know what is the answer!! and it really make me feel sad. may god bless him manage to get someone he really know how to appreciate with. it is just a sad thing that i cant be the one who he really can appreciate on.

i m bek!!

It was quite a long time for din update my blog.. well, i doing fine and nothing special, just another usual life to move on. Time flies, now already end of march. it was nearly 1 year plus staying in singapore. Sometime, feel bit bore staying at here as most of my friends and family are in malaysia. Really dunno what the point of staying at here... quite miss them alot!!